Cursing yourself

I stopped counting the nights seeking comfort
Into the arms of a memory
That barely looks like  you anymore
Because i forgot the lines of your face
When the road makes you grow so old
When these strings make your hands damn cold
When the airplanes that never land in my city
Come crashing into the hope i had for you and me
Because i may have been the youngest
but i loved you the hardest
And burning bridges i let you steal my best.

Now standing alone you're changing your mind
You're changing your ways but it took me too long to love again
Took way too long for you to come home
And this bed can't be yours anymore
So i'll wish this on someone else
Sending you to someone else.

Phases

When your sick game with nostalgia becomes  tragic
Oh when your nostalgia turns into obsession
When your head says hide but your guts say seek
When all you have left is your deceitful intuition-
Run to the place she used to live in
Crawl in the bed she used to sleep in
You'll find that even though she's gone
Her smell is still haunting these walls
These stairs are still facing her falls
And maybe you can still catch what's left of her love.

I like to think you're a stranger to me now 
That everything we've ever done like driving fast and careless, is part of a past that was never my present
You would have left me plain and simple, hurt and broken, ii would have been content.
I danced in your kitchen awhile ago
I grabbed on to your hips knowing i had to let go
I saw the hint of a smile on your familiar face
You said we did this right and we fucked up the rest
We did this right and ruined everything else

your will

Listen to a thousand songs
Reminding you of your young soul
It won't take you back closer
It won't take you back to her-

You're pushing her head underwater

Baby you're not sick anymore i promise
Darling you're safe now i must confess
What you need is a savior and not a cure
When you're doubting their love and feel unsure
When you're craving the arms of a father figure
Breathe in,
the things i gave to you
Breathe out
The things i never asked for you to give back

understatements

I hate you and you're the only one I hate,
And when you kiss them, I hope you feel your broken fate,
Because I still have flowers in my hair,
And my freedom's all over my face
Well you still hold flowers in your hand,
But you're at the wrong address, at the old place,
See when you put the cards down, there's a drink you can still taste,
I hate you and you're the only one I hate,
And this city doesn't recognize your name,
Because I made it mine, I made it mine with ink and sand,
from burning your ship down, I made it mine with loves and friends.
You're swimming to me,
But the bones you broke for someone else than me,
Remind you the shore is far ahead,
The shore is far ahead
I hate you and you're the only one I hate.

swinging heart

Take it away
Away from me
If it's all falling apart,
I'm to blame for my swinging heart
They say she's gone again, back to the start.
When you send me your northen winds
Blowing away the good i feel from the bad i've seen
You bring me back to bed
Because you know they can't-
Call your favorite feeling their beautiful thing,
Let me sleep with him as long as i'm sleeping.
I'm keeping us apart,
They all blame it on my swinging heart,
I'm on a train to you,
They say she's home, they say she's back.

Get closer and try to sell me out,
Give me away, satisfy your lovers' doubts,
Careful now, she's staring but you're hypnotized
It's too late now, i can see it in your tired eyes.
When the stars align, this town's burning
Run fast with the hearts you stole
You will never be my king,
I know these streets by heart,
I own these walls like i own your name and i'm letting you win.