back to my old ways, back to the way i used to be when you werent around.

Sometimes i wonder how i'm still praying,

The faith you gave up and the only thing i still believe in,

Since you at my doorsteps is an image long gone,

I let go of the best love and took back my freedom

Oh i was always too naive, you were always too stubborn,

I trusted things i couldn't see

You were always your own god.

But we had one, one thing in common,

i guess it wasn't enough,

since tonight i took back my freedom.

Sometimes i wonder how i'm still living,

My body needs your hands to get any feeling

Oh and every day I stop my mind from travelling,

too scared to let your perfect face right back in.

I was always too young, you were always too far,

You lived in your songs,

I missed you so bad.

But we had one, one thing in common.

introduction

We were looking for nothing
No light to show us the way
We both escaped and i found you
We both broke down and i met you
You said i'm not myself tonight
I was hoping you were so wrong but i think you may be right,
I said i lost myself tonight,
But you didn't care, you didn't mind.
You told me the things you'd like to think,
And the drinks you like to drink,
How you spent your nights, but never
your mornings,
How you have to stay, but you'd love to leave.
So i told you to go, and i told you my name.

Did you know you saved me,
oh did you know you saved me.

Your music, my books. Our bed, my thoughts.

Are you ready,
are you ready to face the immensity of this,
i have to go,
you have to stay,
When i'll see the ocean
You won't be here,
you won't be here and there'll be nothing more to say,
i'll tell myself that there will be better days,
Because the sun is setting
Because i can feel the sun shining on my face today.

on the count of three

on the count of three,
did you leave her?
And if you forget what song did she love the most,
Will you erase the memories you left from coast to coast,
Oh she stood still and she fell,
you thought you'd keep her close but it never worked out well
Sometimes you can't see her anymore
Sometimes you can't feel her anymore.
There were days when she'd smoke outside your front door,
She'd smoke for long and for even longer,
Just to run back to bed to a dream she knew would fade.
On the count to three,
did she leave you?
She said we should head south,
Oh we should head south
But she went alone and left you home...
Oh she stood still and then she fell,
you thought you'd keep her close but it never worked out well
Sometimes you can't hear her anymore
Sometimes you can't see her anymore

If you see me sitting on an empty playground,
Hours of the morning when the sun is gone,
It doesn't have to mean that i'm lost,
That i lost it all,
But maybe today's the day,
Today the day i got that i'm better off,
i'm better off alone
Every day this fall,
I'm better off alone,

She's in the in between,
oh in between
Not totally gone but not totally here
Like ships rising in bottles
the fragility of it all,
Makes you walk away from your perfect home to a stranger,
oh but you're not totally gone

flowers everywhere, flowers everywhere,
or is it just a morning coffee and a cigarrette.

this is when

This road never ends,
And i wish i saw it coming a long time ago,
instead of being a dreamer with dreams that never fade,
And a poet with beauty filling up my head.
This is when, this is when, this is when,

my clothes are all over your floor,
Oh my hands are reaching for the door,
But somehow i love you more now than i ever had before
I love you more now than i ever had before.
That's when, that's when, that's when
your songs take their meaning,
The mountains we wanted to reach, grow higher than your bedroom's ceiling
But somehow i'm more in love with you now than i have ever been,
oh more in love with you now than i have ever been.

This grand gesture never comes,
And i wish i could start resting,
Instead of hurting and waiting,
And picking the pieces you left all over my dreams
and this when, this is when, this is when,

story told

it's okay to let your heart break, when your hero falls
fists swing and dreams crawl,
we were in love,
we were in love
Places hidden in the woods will always tell stories
This is where we walked and this is where we've been,
Oh all the things we've seen,
Oh those things we've seen
I've got books about us on the back of my hands
And all those scars on them are my friends,
oh we were lovers then
we were lovers then

do you accept your sins,
when the morning comes and goes,
you lay with your arms wide open,
But nothing ever gets close,
When the light is never bright enough,
Could this be the moment i miss you the most-
when you take me for the most imperfect being,
when you're gone and i can't make any memories.
Do you accept your sins,
Do you accept my sins
oh is this how it feels to be happy for someone else,
to put yourself last to end up in a dark room all by yourself
all by yourself

defeats and victories

my victories are your defeats,

and your defeats are my victories

we made each other's lives full of bad surprises,

was it worth it?

was it, was it, was it worth it?

I meant to send you love letters

Are they still sitting by your front door?

All those love letters,

got lost before getting in your hands,

All under the drinks spilled by your so called friends.

You let me in only to throw me out,

oh you let me in only to satisfy your doubts

You let me in only to win this fight

stop and think of that

If you name your city and i name mine
you can say her name and i'll guess the time,
If i was alone and you were gone,
If i was missing you and you were passed out cold,
We both know there's pain when there isn't much wine...
We both know i was always way out of line.

If you ask me to tell you what it felt like,
I'd tell you about the times i slept on my own floor,
The times i didn't have the strenght to cry,
The times i sat by your backdoor,
I'd leave alone the worse, even though i could do better,
I skipped all the times when i was held by strangers.

If you think i can't see you're leaving again
Making me a worse habit than i was to begin with,
If you think that you know me so well,
well cheers to you and to another farewell

It's been mistake after mistake,
and we've been sitting here with words we put in each others mouth,
It's been a while since I've felt safe
so don't tell me our fate is in my hands now-

can't you be constant
can't you understand
can't you be patient
Can't you be my friend

I have the heart to hang in there,
Do you have the strenght to keep it there
I have my heart hanging right here
But it's not right, but you're not here.

L.B

you wish you could tell them that you can still feel the wind
The same one they feel on that fall evening,
That the way you left town was a mistake,
That the day he took you happened on the wrong street, on the wrong date-
The best times of your life are on repeat in your head,
Everything could be perfect here, but it's just not the same
The most beautiful days all on repeat in your head
But when the feeling's gone, someone tell me what's left?
What's left to believe in when you can't be saved?
What's left to believe in when he stole your faith?

tales

I ran through a field of desperation,
Love won't save me and love won't save you,
It's so beautiful when you stay,
Just so wonderful to hear you say
You'll be here forever
But this is not a world you want to live in,
There are words you don't want to hear, pains you don't want to feel
And If our lives are stories to tell,
Then tell me mine with you gone,
If our lies are stories to tell,
Then tell me you didn't know i'd stop believing with you gone
Those tales about how you'd stay, left me so alone
Those tales about how you'd stay left me so alone.

Too much pride and not enough curiousity,
Turns out to be an equation that doesn't go too well tonight,
doesn't work too well with me,
I sink into lies that don't even make sense,
Does he make you feel low to know he did the exact same mistake?
His name and yours together,
His name and yours in the same sentence,
Oh him and i together,
Those lies make a little bit more sense.
The begging, the crying, i've heard it all before,
I've heard it all before from him

Because you left so i'm leaving you
I know you imagine that i'm missing you
You left so i'm leaving you
You can imagine that i'm missing you

walk downtown

it's a beautiful day so why do i feel like i'm losing,
i could be content and satisfied
oh i could be just mesmerized,
mesmerized by you today
i meant to tell you how quiet it is,
how awfully quiet life is without our voices,
When you tell me what to do and i yell right back at you,
When you're walking backwards just so i can face you.
The walk downtown brings me to two ways,
and i get lost from there...
I think one day we'll stop and stare,
Wonder how i got from here to there,
Wonder how we got from here to there

sense

It's getting dark just right now,
i'll take those pictures off the wall,
Wait patiently for the bad fall,
deal with what's hurting me effectively
Grew up weaker than i ever thought i could be
Swinging my fists at life,
Where did they go, those butterflies all around me?
Everything sweet turns bitter,
Everything clear turns into a blur,
Little girls are not so little anymore,
And friends will never be the same as they were before
I could almost blame it all on the weather
I'll just blame it all on the weather

This vicious circle is turning me upside down,
This game of hide and seek makes me so hard to find,
15 hours a day laying in bed,
The rest spent trying to fix the broken thoughts in my head.
Anxious touching, anxious feelings,
Useless advices, be young and start smiling

you should know

I keep you up night after night without any justified reason,
You say i'm allowed to feel that way,
how am i allowed to make this pain last that long,
One day i'll wake up and you'll be gone
Oh it won't be no surprise,
No it won't be no surprise, to me
Because everyday i make it harder,
Just like every night; 'here's the door',
Staring at all your letters, staring at all your flowers-
You bring it all back tonight,
the clouds in my head, flying back and forth,
from right to wrong,
from screams to songs,
You bring it all back tonight,
those clouds in my head,
those thoughts and the lines of your face,
going from so alive to so much pain
so special to plain,
so perfect to vain.

We both lose when the night is taking away our dreams,
Nobody wins when the day ends to words we both don't mean,
and when you decide to come home,
ill welcome you with open arms,
it'll never be too soon,
it'll never be too fast,
Because I never got enough,
I never got enough of you.

virgin suicide

Adjust the crown that's on my head,
the music plays as we lay in the wet field but it slowly fades,
I know you're leaving as my eyes are closing
it's nothing that i've never guessed,
no act that i've never seen.
See my dress doesn't look half as good in the daylight,
i'm waking up, you're packing light.
And this will make me burn all my records,
on the rainy day after the storm,
this will make me burn all my records, all my records
all those wrong lines, all those wrong chords.

you made your way to her,
you heard her voice too,
walked into the room where she can see right through you
but you come around and it's too late,
she's gone and that's all you'll ever get.
she's gone and that's all you'll ever get,
you lost your dream, you lost your best bet...
and that's all you get.
don't you feel so lost when the morning light hits your window
Oh can you feel yesterday's lust when you want to let go,
it'd be easier to forget,
it'd make it all better to regret,
Make what couldn't be worse a little bit of your best

artist

'he reads these stories just like they were his,
and when he falls asleep, he lays on memories
the friends he had were never good enough,
if only the silence around him would make them talk...
i can follow him when he spins faster than the world,
I can chase him when he runs faster than the wolves,
i find him hiding from the life he made,
i can see him clearly when he fades.
he sings old songs and owns blurry photographs,
he erases any signs and any marks
of the nights he slept in empty bedrooms with empty people
empty bedrooms, empty falls.
He says he finds inspiration in these dying streets
Where dreams are lies and sleeping is defeat,
So tonight he won't, no he won't fall asleep.
See the writing on these walls,
on the walls of his empty bedroom, writing about his empty falls.

you're growing older, i'm still so young
things will never change, everytime i touch you i get burned
we were never lucky enough
we were never ready enough, for this,
i say i'm leaving and you say please,
i say i'm right here and you say leave.

never have i ever

from me to you
we come from lies,
you're a lost fight, i'm a lost soul
our common point, these drinks are ours


kiss me up and down
kiss both my cheeks and i'll be fine

don't fail to hear me while i'm crying in my sleep,
trust me i'm willing to lose more than i'm willing to keep
you said you'd bring the world to my doorsteps,
and i believed you,
but the words i say won't bring you down on your knees
Can't you see i'll tear myself apart for you to be pleased
So while i'm watching the seasons taking me closer to you,
You're sitting in the street wondering what to do...

i may be

It's the moonlight that wakes me up,
And there's nothing i can do,
For my spirit to rest, laying here with you
I tried over and over,
To tell myself this is wrong
But it's hard when i've loved you so long
I may be wasting tonight,
Trying over and over
I may be leaving a mark,
Or i may just stay a blurr,
Which ever you want,
Which ever you prefer
I'll go without your heart
But I'll leave tonight with flowers in my hair

by time

It'd easily be called breaking down,
But the voice inside of me can't make a sound,
And i seem to just get lost,
I seem to just lose myself when you're not around
You say it's by time,
It's by time we make this count
I know it's our time,
But i seem to always want more than just fine
because you're gone today
I'm just getting lost,
I'm just getting lost if you're not around.

it will be mine

It's a simple drive,
You're staring at the road
It's nothing but miles,
And i'm staring out of my window
Can you feel me as the sun comes down?
I'll send you singing birds with pretty sounds,
I'll breathe in the air that's all around,
The songs of your radio will be all mine,
The voice in your head, it will be me every time,
it will be mine everytime.
It's a beautiful feeling,
To know we're lonely together
Then i can imagine you smiling,
Because you know the roads will bring us closer
Look at the trees dancing by your eyes,
Just like our tears, just like our lies,
You're driving fast,
You're just driving by...

let me take a look at you now

Years go by and we're changing,
Hey, is it still yourself who you're fighting?
My friend, let me tell you,
you feel way more than you should be feeling.
Do you believe me when i say,
I didn't think we would ever forget
I always thought that you would stay,
i thought good friends were here to stay,
We've been smoking our nights away...
We've been smoking our memories away...
Let me take a look at you now,
Do i still know your favorite song
The way your mood swings when i come along,
And the smile you'd give me when you'd call me so young,
These saturday nights on the phone,
Here's to me crying and all alone,
Let me thank you, thank you for all these nights carrying me home,
Carrying me all the way home.
I wish i never gave you away,
Do you believe me when i say,
I didn't think we would ever forget
I always thought that you would stay.

Everytime you called me so young, it's been so long,
it's been so long, since you've called me so young

only you know

Stay quiet ,
Can you hear the sound of the joy you'll never find again,
Walking by yourself in the street where you used to live just like a lonely dance,
Only you know,
Only you know.
You're just as young as you were yesterday,
Only you know it will never be the same,
There's no way you'll reinvent the games you used to play
So you walk to another summer night,
You walk away.
Keep the peace you used to feel,
When it was all about your innocence,
It leaves you with the taste of a first kiss you barely remember,
But only you know
We both thought we felt love just like grown up people
So you walk to another summer night,
you walk away...
We were living in a world of streets married to trees,
A world where young lust was the only key,


but only you, you know.

my

my love, my love, my love
you could let me fall,
Patience has never been mine,
Give me one good reason to act just fine,
And my love,
I know you'll never take back,
All the things you taught me
I know i owe you to be just happy
But my love,
I give myself away,
And god you knew i'd never be perfect
You fooled yourself right when we met,
Oh my love,
Recite your lines just once again,
Sing your songs and sing your pain,
You and i just never end

how it goes

Leave it to the ocean to separate us,
Give your heart a chance,
I'm giving you tonight and the ending of a slow dance,
The way my dress wraps around you,
And a few notes that i know you know too.
Tell me more about the dreams you think you'll never reach,
The mistakes you've made when all you ever wanted was a kiss.
And this lives in the back of your mind,
The back of your mind,
For days you think you're gone from everything,
That you're so hard to find.
And this lives in the back of your head,
The back of your head,
You've lost yourself to love,
It's beautiful but it all fades
You wish i'd give it all back to you,
And that i'd fall asleep in your bed.

I'd love to be the one that changes everything
To be sweet, to be close, to be seen,
I think i'll try over and over again
When i lost everything there's not much more to gain
Imagine the most beautiful things
But this can't be out of our favorite book
And this is way harder than i thought,
But i'll take as much as i can get
I'll take the lies, the way you touch me and
the next morning i'll forget all your secrets.

You're the only one i listen to
Just like the songs i get sick of,
You're the only one i hear loud and clear,
Just like the songs i'll always love

Go south

Remember the sand sliding in between my fingers,
and this bitter taste of tears
when i was so ready, so ready to leave
Just like my summer loves,
Enjoy every second and forget the feelings,
Never have memories, remember the smallest things,
Keep blurry pictures and forget faces you've seen...
This place is a dream, you used to say
This place is dying, but let me stay...
And for some reason it was always the same time,
it was always right in between day time and night,
For some reason i would end up standing here,
wanting more than what i came here with

It's a slow pain,
and when it comes it stays too long,
Too long to keep you sane,
and i wish i could take you back,
hold you in my arms so you could be the same
You know it even sounds different,
sounds different when i say your name

can we lay here for another hour-
i lose and i love
i fall and i fight,
so let's..
let's stay home tonight

beauty in the beast.

Tell me to turn right, i will run to the left
I let you steal my glances, my tears and my secrets,
Forget the reasons, we both know it's best,
it's probably wrong that it's so right,
Hitting our heads against empty walls makes us both feel alive.
Let go, you can keep me,
You're holding me so tight i can barely breathe
I'm a mistake, i'm what you find beautiful, i'm just a tease,
And you know i know in a few days this is all you will miss,
Here's another reason as to why use your broken fists
In this mess i remember,
You could sing me lullabies with this screaming voice,

i will live, i will breathe, i will live through tonight
if these hands are yours,
And whatever you do to me, i will feel safe until the morning light

please don't make me wait,
open your eyes and wake,
we both know i see things clearer when they start to break,
and i must admit,
i'm scared of the way my dreams are going,
scared of the road i want to take,
but the world won't stop spinning,
and you will make me wait

be in pain with me.

Well i've been wondering about you,
Wondering if the cold gets to you like it gets to me,
If you cry sometimes, if you think of me,
If you want to feel me walking by you as you walk through your city,
If you want to, if you want to, if you want be in pain with me.
We're somewhere in between, the place where it hurts and the one we want to be,
But i think it's safe for me to say;
My favorite nights are the ones when you put me to sleep
My favorite stories are the ones you whisper to me
My favorite street is the one where we meet,
My favorite feeling is each second you touch me,

if you want, if you want, if you want to be in pain,
let me, please let me be in pain with you.

We're driving fast,
and your voice is a million songs at once,
i've dreamt it so many times,
I can't help falling asleep again

no idea

looks like lies to me,
sounds like lies to me,
But you just can't feel, no you just can't see.
taste like lies to me,
feels like lies to me,
But somehow i'll let you be,
I'm broken and you have no idea
I'm broken and you have no idea.

And if i shout and i cry,
Maybe you won't go too far,
You'll forget the letters in goodbye.

And if i yell and i fight,
Maybe you'll kiss me better,
Maybe you'll stay just one more night.

everything i've always loved,
from everything i've got to everything i've lost,
changed from a million precious memories to dust,
the second this road became yours.

stranger

We walk around and share cigarrettes,
And i'm trying to remember if we just met,
You smile at me and i smile back,
We lay in your backyard until dark,
You think i'm distant, i think way too much,
You pour me some wine, i already miss your touch,
Did we just meet, we're falling asleep on your couch.
You know i'm winning and you're scared,
So you take me home when there's nothing more to be said,
Laughing all day all night, it's already past twelve,
And we're dreaming out loud,
Trying to remember the date,
Did we just meet, yes we just met.

Your lost intentions, my red nailpolish,
your lack of affection, the way our eyes don't meet,
I could tell you i care,
But i'm too good of a liar to make it fair.
And you're pretty, yes you're the one i'd love to kiss,
But when you go, i don't miss you at all,
And i'm sorry i had to get you to fall,
I had to get you to fall for me,
i just don't know why he can feel,
he can feel the things you dont see.

i've hated you from the first day

i should have known you'd never change
your brave eyes and your mocking smile,
Your sweet hello, your meaningless goodbye,
I've hated you from the first day,
I've hated you from the first day.
But you know me too well,
You know the things that make me bite my tongue,
The words you try to get me to say,
You're the one thing i always do wrong,
I've hated you from the first day.
I know you know i'm alone,
You think it gives you the right to see right through me,
And i'm begging you to leave me alone,
I won't let myself fall apart for you to see

you say and you repeat
if i leave now, how will you know,
If i go, how will you know you're good?
And i scream, and i say,
I've hated you from the first day

we keep running around like lost kids,
to find eachother in places we thought secret,
we think the way first lovers did,
we like to call coincidences fate.
And we both know that if we sit still long enough,
we'll know why we care,
we'll keep thinking our hearts are too pure
to face eachother and play truth or dare,
so we crave innocence, and we seek answers into eachother's stare,
we lose, we win, we laugh at things nobody else's understands,
and who cares, who cares if to the world it doesn't make sense.

this morning

i heard your voice say good morning,
from your living room to the bedroom
and yesterday's goodnight seemed so far away
I hardly remember what you had to do to get me to stay.

You're standing here and my head's spinning,
I feel like i could be sick, you feel like singing.
And your lips are already all over me,
your pretty face is close to mine,
and this morning, this morning, this morning,
i'm surprised we're both okay
i'm surprised we're both fine.

i heard your voice say last night was different
from the bedroom to the bathroom
and i can't tell you,
if i feel terrible, or if i feel really good

city lights as friends

there's a bloody war inside your heart,
let me take care of you,
i will try and get you back
there's desappointment in the world around you,
and you can't lie, no you can't help but see the truth.

you walk the streets at night with the city lights as friends,
you silentely watch people play with life when you already won the game,
the only real feeling to you is the one that flows from the tip of your pen,
you see everything will change tomorrow, if you can only count to ten
and you know, you know, loneliness is as simple as the letters in your name,

and as much as it hurts,
your inspiration can only come from tonight's pain.

it's been a long day, it's been a cold night
i've fought so hard to be in this bed,
and everything finally makes sense,
everything finally feels right

and we're falling asleep

good night