travelling

Looking so frail to me

Building imaginary bridges to your endless envy,

A few months and some days faithful to a fragile sobriety

Are you overcoming some adversity?

Is your troubled mind overcoming her, overpowering me



You're calling in the night, someone that can not hear,

Oh you're drawing in the night, a map to someone who desappeared

This is what you lost, on your way to the top,

Travelling alone- when she packed your bags, when she packed your life,

She's all you got. She was all you had



Let you use someone else's voice to tell this story,

Let you abuse a few of my words to get you where you want to be

Guiding you to a wall of people stabbing people' sympathy

Such a love, such a lie you're making at destination,

Away from your careless days at sea chasing inspiration

Reaching for talent, lost in translation

Reaching for talent, lost in translation.

Spent some nights studying your face
Learning your pride, what was left of your grace,
Your tormented soul, your eternal affairs
You always paint your own sky, the shade it deserves.

But you're in black and i'm all white,
You're standing still, i'm moving fast
Trying to stay out of your sight,
I can almost hear bones breaking tonight
I can almost feel bones breaking tonight.

without notice.

Get out of this taxi,
Because you used to walked to us and run to me,
Counting the bottles on your floor,
Wrapped in the sheets you can't escape from,
You look so small sometimes,
You look so small to me.

I still hear the music through the walls,
Some words echoing more than others,
Because this door never closes properly,
Close it please, lock it for me
You changed it all and you changed me.

And you say,
She's making you write,
Making you write and you can't stop
She's making you write,
You're writing down the past while she's growing up
You're writing down everything you'd die to remember and you're breaking her up
You're already fucking her up.

underneath you

There will be other times but i missed the best,
I wanted to see you for once, but i think you just left
You just left-
So i was facing the faded skyline, sitting on your doorsteps
Well, we had our time, we tried our best
We crossed some lines, we made our bets
We came out of this pretty damn sore,
It makes it hard to feel anything at all
Cause i'm not underneath you anymore,
I'm not underneath you anymore.

It's a sunday and i'm not sure how late it is,
Curtains keep the sunlight we need the most in check,
Check up on you, one eye open
We're a curtain, you are the sun
We're the curtain, you are the sun.
We live somewhere underneath it all,
You take the stairs, i follow you, i follow through,
I try to breathe somehow underneath you,
Underneath you.

Some kind of beauty

Brick after brick you built these walls
Went through the kind of hell you don't come back from
But you loved. A love so strong.
Fragile desire,
Burning me
Burning you with some other kind of fire-

I feel it late at night, when these sheets become a fight,
I'll never look back.

You raised yourself to be the father of all
But you cover the song you love the most,
because you're scared to write your own-
Everybody left you to find a god,
You held more in your arms than them all along
Some kind of beauty you faced all alone.

You feel it late at night, when these sheets become a fight,
You'll never look back.

I'll do it all over again, you'll do it all over in pain

Brave.

Skinny fingers, breaking away
Throwing stones at life every day
If you die alone, you'll stay mine for awhile more
I'll crawl out the window while you walk through that door.
Young hopes fading with the month of november
Lies you never thought you'd hear,
Rolling off your tongue,
Rolling off your songs-
Winter gets to you like a disease,
You feel so alone,
I could cure you in a second,
A second too late
Her hair on your pillow just became fate.
We're only rising to fall further down,
From the valley to the river,
Away from the music we used to hear

You were a tourist in my world
Calculating the ways to travel right to me
Now I sleep on your tragedies,
The things you break-
The things we left
Left and back to you
Right and back to me
You were a painter in my head,
Drawing and filling the empty spaces you made,
Painting my love grey
With the things you couldn't say,
With the word leave and the word stay.

Father's daughter

Will you lose your purpose when she stares at you
She's his flesh and she's your bones
She's screams and moans
She's never in between your sheets,
She'll never whisper sweet nothings,
Instead she'll say you're nothing
Nothing worth praying for.
Please put yourself back together,
Forests of growing hopes for you and her,
The nights are dark but mornings get brighter,
You're losing your voice looking for her,
You're losing your voice screaming her name.

misunderstanding

When the sun was so high for you,
It was coming down for me,
Your were walking the same steps i did,
You were just right behind me,
It was my shadow you saw,
My shadow you saw.
Hang your coat back in my living room,
I missed you by a few seconds, you left way too soon,
Meet me at the same place we chased the feeling,
It's a season too late but these are the same streets, the same park, the same buildings-
Define us as a misunderstanding.

words down

Measure the distance between you and her,
Read the lines you wrote by wasting time,
Start over,
Break, Breaking, Broken people
You have the weight of the secrets of one two many,
One two many lovers on your shoulders
That never really mattered,
We never really mattered.
Walk up north,
To something cold,
Frozen jealousy,
You'll kill her while loving the way she used to be.

love you less

Curse the days when you are carelessly driving through town,
Curse my name and curse the dirt these few years made,
You know i never asked you to be so kind,
Kind of the one,
Last night, tonight and tomorrow
If all you can do is lay awake,
Pins and needles, your body's losing its sense,
With love on your mind, but her in your hands,
I think i, i think i'll do my worse to do my best, to love you less
To love you less
Oh do you look for me when you can't bear it anymore,
When the days away, make the nerves of your neck too sore,
To look back at something that's fading fast,
Do you look for me while driving through town anymore.

Be indifferent,
I know you see it too when you face this mess,
Please waste your time waiting for someone else
I think i'll do my worse to do my best, to love you less.

this place

This place is full of stories,
And if i told you this garden we thought was ours when we were kids,
Still has the youth we wish we kept,
Still has the nights we wish we didn't sleep through,
Would you take it all on yourself,
That you left behind a love that meant the world, this place to you.

I hope someone took your hand to lead you through the homes that were never yours
I hope strangers loved you hard and strong
I hope you heard some silences but mostly songs
Hiding behind trees we watched growing
As when we turned our worthless candid mornings into long, tired evenings

what to do-

I broke bones to feel more alive
But now that i'm living, it's hard to get by
I look closely but i'm still blind,
Blind and i fall,
I fall to the ground
and wonder what it means,
That i still can't clearly see you, that i can't feel a thing.


be a friend and feel my pain
I'm still bruised and broken and everything's the same
everything's the same.

Speak

Talk in riddles but talk to me
You're whispering to her but you're staring at me,
You're staring, you're glaring
With eyes i don't know
Can you hear the silence again, it's my time to go.

And when you're be ready to speak, speak, speak again
There'll be dirt on the ground, there'll be blood on your hands
When you're ready to find yourself again,
Speak to me,
Speak my name
Take this silence and take the blame,
for the wasted sunshine days
for the wasted sunshine days
I take this silence and they're my fault
All these wasted silent nights
Breathing on you, facing your back.
-

Screams through these halls,
This is one, too many calls,
Calls to someone that is not here, any more, more, more than you,
I don't live for your voice to hear any more, that's true.
This morning is mine-
No matter how hard you reach to feel today,
This morning is mine.

And you reach for the warmth of my life when it touched yours,
When my touch makes everything you know serene and beautifully calm
But today, this morning is mine.

something

Come in, let yourself in,
You hurt most of mine, so let me hurt your feelings
You are a weak child lost in the arms of a stranger
When you love me enough , i'll finally make you crawl close and closer,
You are the fainting feeling i get when i stand up to face myself
Because i colored this all grey with thick, thick smoke
I can inhale every minute of every night spent losing myself and losing you
Spent losing myself and losing you.
Oh I may have been here before,
Once i died right here and once i loved around the corner,
Who do you become in those streets?
They'll beat you up
You'll break down then we'll break up, up, up
Up to another year of long nights and longer hair
You call this romantism and i call this a terrible affair, fair
Fair to your late nights feeling sick, craving bodies intertwined
Losing yourself and losing me..

Born writers,
Full of non sense and desperation
Living in locked and beautiful minds,
This is a stairwell to losing love, when youve walked up the one to losing your mind.
Everything in this room has been placed carefully,
to make you feel empty
Everybody in your life has been touched so carefree,
to make you feel empty,

winds

Are the hard days over yet?
Do you love yourself more tonight,
did you paint the city, did you make your mark?
I had faith in spring, a little less in summer,
I wonder about fall, will i get through winter...
Well on this windy day
I crossed a bridge to you,
i swear i ran and ran to you.
I couldnt get any closer
To the fact that we had absolutely nothing to say to each other...

head spins.

Don't let it go so quiet,
We're just a little bit in love and a little bit in hate
A thousand sounds of things that break
I'm back to being one of your misplaced objects
You don't know that i'm here but i am,
This bedroom is crowded and i'm just hard to find...

and i send you all my wishes
To get well well well
well, more alive.
You are oh so gracious
When anger gets the best of you
When you shake from head to toe
Thats the you that i best know.

Lights on the right and parks on the left
Go with what feels right and sweep what is left
Lights on the right and parks on the left
You are so constant, but i can convince you we haven't met,
we have never been there, we have no directions.

Changes

Take your time he says
Build it up and take it down
It's me it's him it's her,
and it's never been fine-
Create harmonies
Voices of strangers put together
So your empty life sounds a little better
Does it sound somehow better?
Spend the change in your pockets
Towards the nights you'll most regret
To come back home to your memories at best.

Paris seul

bright lights

If i give up then just give in,

because it feels as i can't breathe

and all those planes taking off to songs

to words that don't mean anything real

It all feels so wrong,

all so wrong.

So i wrap my head around the idea that the love i had for you standing in your bedroom

has been buried in someone's inspired soul,

maybe they'll forgive you,

more than i ever will

maybe they'll see you in the bright light

i used to see your face in.

All those bright lights fading.

what if-

She's talking but all you can do is stare,
The way her eyelids open and close with such grace,
The million shapes her body takes,
oh we could try, do you believe we could,
Because sometimes i feel just as i'd die,
if i knew this is the way this ends for good.

I think and think again
You are summers, you are falls and we probably can,
Because if we count the times we put pieces back together
And the times i slept on your shoulder,
All the times i told you, look i'm in love,
The times i arrived, bags at your door,
When you said okay,
and i said d'accord
To fall on the floor
To watch a broken ring wrapped around your finger


Please wait,
Please wait
This kind of beauty is something i have never seen
And if you're now leaving,
Well i learned nothing at all
Take back the images in my head
Because the least you can do is make me forget your name
And all these days of us.

realities

Everything is going so fast,
and the cars full of strangers laughing seem like old photographs,
Old photographs of a life i used to live
things i used to do,
loves i used to feel
and the bottles spinning,
let's make each other all feel better
and forget this is a world away from our reality
people we want to be become and that we'll never really be,
i'll never fly to you or the foreign countries we meant to go to,
forever ago,
forever ago

You were like a kiss in the morning light,
Sometimes the weather would help, but most often it'd be just so bad
It brought back your flaws and marked your face with angry lines
Put your hands face down on the coffee table,
Please let today be mine
please let this be mine

it wasn't my honour in your hands
And those notes everywhere never helped.
it was not my honour in your hands
And your discrete falls behind closed doors never helped

the nature of things

Come to yours and my senses
To a door locked and to a street of promises
won't you come running
won't you try and tell me...

How many times i fell down those stairs
When you were playing me and i was playing fair
And if you let me say something more
I'd say it's been a lifetime and i'm still sore

I'm wrecking those paintings one by one
One by one and you're watching
And for once, i just don't feel anything

I can hear them run in between your walls
Late at night and early mornings,
And they scare me but atleast,
atleast they remind me you're still here

Smooth skin is made from touching
You taught me this like everything
And i'm learning you, i'm learning about your bones and skin
It's becoming my favorite life and my favorite thing
Arms covered and legs shaking
Tonight, it means something to be here.
We are night travellers
Night travellers through hundreds of empty fields.
One day i will have a rooftop for us,
And even if we're far gone, we'll go back to us

how loved

No matter how loved i am it's never enough
I go from bridge to bridge
From city to city and day by day
Looking for another dream to dream and another way away
Away from people who understand
You are all so wrong, it's not the same
From last December to this May,
Walking to the bars i leave and leaving marks that stay
Over this and over them
Over some love, and some more pain
It's still so hard
Oh so hard.
How loved
How hard
How loved
How sad

intrusion

They sit with their legs crossed and face to face
Id love to believe its where we should be,
but its not our place.
I'm a little out of luck so far,
But we go to great lenghts,
I want to be free so bad,
But i'm still in this cage.
We talk in tones, we talk in voices made to be whispered,
We want to be wise, but we just sound obsurd
-this could be the meaning of the beautiful life, but it feels like a curse.

Loved one, he is singing a tune i don't know,
do you hear him too?
He is in the room as i'm caressing the sheets i don't know,
do you see him too?

something you have never seen

Well sir, have you lost your head,
I lost mine so long ago she said.
Did we beautifully failed?
Yes we failed to the end.
Fools were all staring at something they wish they had
That night, I know the entire world was staring at us
We were living, joy filled but so mad,
we lost it all, fools that we are.
I want to die listining to this song she said,
Not much about loving, but pain for so long,
I want to watch you touch them all she said,
Watch you drown in this bed without me,
Make up romances
Made up romances.

You'll never see it, even less, you'll never believe in it.

the times i hold you a little bit too tight,

you remind me of when i was a child

of the sweetest times of my short life.

you're saving me these days

you save me every day

fix yourself

I know you feel like watching those walls fall right down,
But listen to your best songs and control yourself,
And if you have any honor left
I'd like to see it save you
Because your big city dreams will bury you
And well, those smiling faces never loved you
Those crowds were never yours
And she wasn't the first
The first to break your bones to dust.
Write it all down while you can
I know you believe it but i know you're insane
But i'd like to see you live through this
Because once you realize the worse, there won't be much to miss,
There won't be much to fix.

I left your name around my neck

For the nights i breathe too loud falling in love with some old song

I wrote it down three months ago,

Every letter carefully placed

On some paper and drew your face

Lines after lines and lies after breakdowns

By the flowers you never got me,

In the empty space between you and me.

I put it away, and i dont remember,

Well it's all a sign, it's all better.

I left your name in the clothes on my floor,

Most i stole when i loved and i adored,

Oh your name was in all my books,

But i put them all away,

and it's a sign, it's all better,

So hard to find, so much better.

interest

You were never clean,
The mess you made is the made you left,
I was never ready to leave
But what i thought i'd give was what you thought you'd get,
And yesterday i remembered,


I remember when this interested me,
Talking about failure and failing
Talking about nights laying and nights lying,
When i was interested,
By the wrong of everything we always said,
By the mess we made
by the mess we left

all i can take

Did you just turn winter into summer?
because its an early evening and an even early night,
and i think i can feel the sun coming down

Did you just make it all right?

I wont wish it upon anybody else

When i give it all and all i can take,

is another night alone,

all i can do,

is sleep alone

I know.
I know this is turning into a million wasted seconds

cover her face

Cover her face
with both your hands
Shes scared of life
shes scared of you
shes been in pain,
and shes been used
Times and times again in dark, dark bedrooms,
Shes the one,
Oh you swear shes the one to you
But what else,
what else is new.
Cover her face
Give her some faith
Everything she wanted she almost got,
But almost is not all,
Almost is not a whole lot.

non sense

Were making eachother weak
Breaking everybody elses spirit,
Bonding over wasted moments
Too many drinks, im in your hands,
Making mistakes i cant regret
Think ahead, just think ahead,
We both just cant,
we both just cant.

We dont believe in much,
we dont believe in life
Ive got your back when youre a lush,
You take me down, when im too high
some days, some nights, nights, nights

mornings

We had a few lovely mornings, and many bad ones
Breaking windows to see sunlight,
Breaking each others faith just to survive,
Coffees spilled all over dreams, and you're to blame,
You and your early deceptions,
you and you're destructive fame,
We're tearing sheets apart,
Oh we've already fallen apart,
I loved you so hard
how did we get to that,
how did you get like that-
I loved you just as much
As the mornings we would touch
Just as much,
As the mornings we could touch.
Tired bodies living in early mornings,
More lust than i had ever seen,
But last night's war got me walking,
got me running away
So sing songs all night and wake up to fame,
I won't be laying here tomorrow
And never again.

Is my name still all over your bed,
Mornings with the lines of my face,
Are those mornings still fucking with your head.

for us for once

I wonder what else can you do
To people around town
To people around you,
when did your eyes become the ones i only see,
when did you become the one closer to me?
you took me by surprise,
but its okay,
Because ive got plans for you and i,
Ive got a map of roads and dreams for us to take,
and i know well, we'll get there

so feel me up,
and bring me down
would you look for me in crowded streets,
looking at the prettiest women begging please dont insist,
dont insist.
would you spend an entire summer with me,
even if wed have to hide from the world,
would you sleep with me on an empty beach,
waiting to be found out,
waiting for those secrets to collide
waiting for one morning when whisper bye, oh goodbye.

i knew you would
oh i knew the entire time

all away

These bones have been used and broken,
those eyes have been lied to like you have no idea,
those hands never received half of what they've given,
Are you unsatisfied,
unsatisfied by the taste of life,
so you give your love,
give your love away,
thats another second, thats another day,
give all your love away.
Those friends you've thrown yourself at,
tell me, will they make you come back?
These lines on your face fade,
i loved you alive, how could you be so dead,
how can you be so dead.

Are you finally what you wanted to be.

Are you unsatisfied,

unsatisfied by the taste of life,

So you give your love,

give your love away

that's another second, that's another day,

give all your love away.

And when you fall,
because you will,
and when you fall,
because we both know you will,
i wont be there to carry you home,
and when you call,
Because we both know you will,
i wont be by the phone,
cause if something can go wrong.
if something can go wrong we both know it will
so give your love away,
give it all away,
give it all, give it all away.

lights off

well i dont mind you watching my body moves,
as secrets fill up your bedroom,
we think until we're lying to each other,
we drink until we're laying on your floor,
And the numbness is gone
and the numbness is gone

We never stay around eachother too long,

we count days until the summer with radio sounds,

Til the numbness is gone

You dont have to explain the things you dont understand,

No you dont have to explain, why you're taking me out again

You cant explain, and i dont understand

Understand

Can you feel the strangeness of it all,
We feel so lonely but there are so many people,
People in bedrooms with dreams and souls,
Are we lovers or are we just alone,
are we lovers or are we just alone?
You've been out of town for days but i'm still wearing your clothes,
Still, i think i'm breathing through your mouth and you're breathing through my nose,
But that's just the way it goes,
The way we go

you're here now, so rest your head on the piano,
i'll let you sleep for an hour or so,
Are you here now, please come back to the piano,
I'll wake you up in an hour or so

There's a dying wish in every sunset,
I know another day's coming,
oh i know another night is on its way,
But hearts stop every day,
and i can't hear yours play,
oh hearts stop every day,
and i can't hear yours play

we are all thiefs,
you, me and people in those streets,
we all steal what we can,
from echother lives, from eachother's pains,
say you're leaving, i know you're stealing all you can,
all you can from me.

bridges

I started walking another direction
Not sure i'll find my way back,
But i'm taking the risk,
Rushing to another exit,
Rushing to you but you dont exist
Oh why can't you exist
I lost the way to a better ending,
Im broken but i keep running,
it's cold outside and i can't feel a thing,
But if i stop on this bridge now,
i know i'll start falling
You'll stand right here
and i'll start falling

i would close my eyes and count to ten
change my mistakes and change your name-
i had regrets, none about you but many about them,
when your honour was in my hands,
all i could do was breathe in your pain.
maybe you'll have coffee in bed,
maybe you'll have coffee in bed with them,
maybe the road you take in the morning,
maybe the days you are painting are still the same,
but you may never paint my face again

never the same