Mornings are a reminder
To the every day habits that left a few pieces still on the floor
Take a two way street to try and compromise
End up hitting the same damn wall
Self destruct, do you still feel as pure?
You didn't leave me in ruins
I still feel the sun rising through this side of the country
And if the January cold still gets to me
It's not as bad from the safe place I'm in
As from where you're standing
where the body I used to love's shivering
The eyes I used to crave start staring
Your voice's breaking

You'll always be feeling

The way the nerves of your neck tense up
When my name is brought up
The way your hands turn into fists
I used to find romance in the way you were fucked up
I used to find glory into each and every one of your defeats.

21

In between seasons you're doubting everything
Trying to hold your head high so you can keep breathing
You almost convince yourself you're as young as you feel
Passing by the people you can't stop missing-
What would i do to go back to the times
My father would tell me everything will be fine
Take me back to watching the stars align
When everything we noticed had to be a sign
It had to be a sign.
We will never grow apart,
Embrace your melancholia and let it pass
We will never grow apart
You are my first, you are my last.

Cursing yourself

I stopped counting the nights seeking comfort
Into the arms of a memory
That barely looks like  you anymore
Because i forgot the lines of your face
When the road makes you grow so old
When these strings make your hands damn cold
When the airplanes that never land in my city
Come crashing into the hope i had for you and me
Because i may have been the youngest
but i loved you the hardest
And burning bridges i let you steal my best.

Now standing alone you're changing your mind
You're changing your ways but it took me too long to love again
Took way too long for you to come home
And this bed can't be yours anymore
So i'll wish this on someone else
Sending you to someone else.

Phases

When your sick game with nostalgia becomes  tragic
Oh when your nostalgia turns into obsession
When your head says hide but your guts say seek
When all you have left is your deceitful intuition-
Run to the place she used to live in
Crawl in the bed she used to sleep in
You'll find that even though she's gone
Her smell is still haunting these walls
These stairs are still facing her falls
And maybe you can still catch what's left of her love.

I like to think you're a stranger to me now 
That everything we've ever done like driving fast and careless, is part of a past that was never my present
You would have left me plain and simple, hurt and broken, ii would have been content.
I danced in your kitchen awhile ago
I grabbed on to your hips knowing i had to let go
I saw the hint of a smile on your familiar face
You said we did this right and we fucked up the rest
We did this right and ruined everything else

your will

Listen to a thousand songs
Reminding you of your young soul
It won't take you back closer
It won't take you back to her-

You're pushing her head underwater

Baby you're not sick anymore i promise
Darling you're safe now i must confess
What you need is a savior and not a cure
When you're doubting their love and feel unsure
When you're craving the arms of a father figure
Breathe in,
the things i gave to you
Breathe out
The things i never asked for you to give back

understatements

I hate you and you're the only one I hate,
And when you kiss them, I hope you feel your broken fate,
Because I still have flowers in my hair,
And my freedom's all over my face
Well you still hold flowers in your hand,
But you're at the wrong address, at the old place,
See when you put the cards down, there's a drink you can still taste,
I hate you and you're the only one I hate,
And this city doesn't recognize your name,
Because I made it mine, I made it mine with ink and sand,
from burning your ship down, I made it mine with loves and friends.
You're swimming to me,
But the bones you broke for someone else than me,
Remind you the shore is far ahead,
The shore is far ahead
I hate you and you're the only one I hate.

swinging heart

Take it away
Away from me
If it's all falling apart,
I'm to blame for my swinging heart
They say she's gone again, back to the start.
When you send me your northen winds
Blowing away the good i feel from the bad i've seen
You bring me back to bed
Because you know they can't-
Call your favorite feeling their beautiful thing,
Let me sleep with him as long as i'm sleeping.
I'm keeping us apart,
They all blame it on my swinging heart,
I'm on a train to you,
They say she's home, they say she's back.

Get closer and try to sell me out,
Give me away, satisfy your lovers' doubts,
Careful now, she's staring but you're hypnotized
It's too late now, i can see it in your tired eyes.
When the stars align, this town's burning
Run fast with the hearts you stole
You will never be my king,
I know these streets by heart,
I own these walls like i own your name and i'm letting you win.

no way you possibly could

Soon enough you're out of luck and out of love,
Left them to take care of yourself,
We could be worse, but we're never at our best,
They don't really know when to let you rest,
They don't really know how to hold your face-
Maybe these streets are holding you down,
A little bit wiser here, they all know you can both be insane,
Maybe it's time you change your name again,
Because you start seeing yourself painting a room with him,
And it's never been a good sign,
When you start picturing
Oh when you start picturing
August on the deck
Your hands on my back
And mine on your neck,
Out of control again

Are you lost on the top of your mountain?
The wind pushing directions far away from where i'm standing,
And you forgot the advices your loved ones gave you,
Before you left the person you used to be
God you used to be something to see
You used to be something to see-
So take in the view
Chase the thought of me and you
Through the forest of what you try your hardest to forget,
Under your consciousness and far above

it's far behind you my love

you may turn me back into a child
But i hold my own
When you walk through that door
I hold my own
There are times i feel like this is right
There are times i feel like this is real
They are quick and hopeless-
but when they come around, they hit me hard in the face.

Anybody will help her see further,
than the balcony where her head is spinning
Breathing the air of a hometown she's already started hating
She's already starting, starting, starting.
But you know what to do, when your hands are on her
Falling off your high horses,
Taking off your layers
Like you clean your messes
Walking by the shore, but stranger you've never been to these places.

Because you failed her, over and over,
over
But the honest trust is that does not matter,
matter much, much to her